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I am not sure if it is the post Thanksgiving food fog. It could also just be a new time and holidays are here. What a difference a year makes.  I was looking through pictures the other afternoon.  And they just struck me.  And I had to shut it down.  I have boxes of Christmas decorations sitting in my living room.  I want to deck the halls, but I also want to avoid it.  Just because my life is heading in a new direction and it feels right doesn’t mean there isn’t a lingering sorrow.  I want to burrow in my bed and sleep.  

Yesterday was a great day.  We cooked.  We ate.  We laughed.  We drew turkey hand prints.  I visited new people.  I ate too much pie.  It felt good.  It felt really good.  But I still have some shit to deal with. And this is where I am today.  I’m unable to pinpoint the exact root of my fidgetiness.  I need exercise.  And a nap.